"...I occasionally balk at taking the necessary steps to move ahead, and find myself resisting the very actions that could bring about the joy I want. I would not resist if those actions did not touch some vulnerable area of my life, an area that needs hope and fulfillment. Repeated exposure to joyfulness has a way of softening the hard, outer edges of my ego..." Daily Reflections p. 372
Darn, I could have written this!! I have some hard edges that I refuse to surrender to the Father--why I don't know, but I am sure more will be revealed.