Feelings are much like waves, we can't stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf. ~Jonatan Mårtensson
As I adjust to a new medicine, I find myself suddenly without any energy. A former insomniac, I took two naps today after eight hours of sleep. I find this sudden change disconcerting--especially since I have so much to do. However, I am grateful that I have always been so healthy that I don't know how to be sick; I get discouraged and even pissed off. I am learning that I squander my energy on useless past times like obsessive thinking, negative emotions and fighting situations instead of accepting them the way they are.
I have a painting I want to enter in the fair which means I have to finish it soon so that it will be thoroughly dry. I haven't had the energy. But I know all the slogans, "this too shall pass," "one day at a time," "let go and let God," and "go with the flow." Putting them into practice and keeping a positive outlook will help me through this rough spot and even get the garden weeded and the painting finished.
I found a painting I hadn't shown --The Color of Lilacs. (The photo of the painting is not the best--a little yellow) It is an early still life where I discovered I could paint glass and reflective surfaces -like the vase and picture frame. I picked the flowers from several varieties of lilac trees. I made much of the painting up like the books, the landscape and the portrait. How cool is that? How does one paint a vase of water? Paint the background, then the back of the vase, then the contents of the vase (always considering the distortion of water and glass) and the front of the vase. Works for me!!