Monday, April 26, 2010

Catchin' Happiness

The Constitution only guarantees the American people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself. ~Benjamin Franklin
Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things. ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

My prayer lately has been, "God, I want to be happy again." I have been happy before. Before a series of trials occurred that were beyond anything I could imagine, including the death of my husband. These things robbed me of my happiness. Too a degree, there were things beyond my control, but I also allowed my peace and joy to be taken from me. I didn't fight to hang onto it. I am mad now. I want it back, damn it!! I want it back. You know what? I am gonna get it. Just hide and watch.

I enjoyed some good ordinary things today: Planting seeds, exercise, a nap, eating homemade soup and precious time with women who are sharing my journey.

This painting is titled Tomatoes simply because I didn't know what else to call it. The best part is the glass bottle. I love painting glass. Maybe that is what I will do now.

4 comments:

  1. One can only admire your determination & dedication Maxie. "Peace and joy" are your birthright ! http://www.schoolofwisdom.com/gitanjali.html has few poems from Tagore Sahib. With prayers & fine thoughts

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  2. Happiness is worth fighting for...whatever it takes.

    You sound determined. It'll come.

    =)

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  3. I love you Maxie, you go girlfriend, you are doing some amazing work in your grief time. you are an inspiration to many that life can and does go on after a loss. mass hugs, Sandi Lierley

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