I confess that I decided how things were going to be. Since the last couple of years have been horribly hard with one drama after another, I figured that it was time for a break from challenges. After all, I have had those times in my life when things were smooth and peaceful, wasn't I entitled to that now? "Is it not time?" I thought. Then BAM! The hip went out. I was angry and stormed against this new intrusion in my life with tears and clenched fists. This is NOT what I had on the agenda for 2010! But then, I was the one who wrote the agenda; apparently God had other ideas. While I have no trouble remaining sober in regards to drugs and alcohol, my mind and emotions are another story. I have been stark raving nuts--for some time now, and it has been overwhelming.
Today, though, was a good day. This morning I told God I was at my wits end and asked Him to control the Wild Child, my mind, and for the first time in a long time, I feel emotionally sober. I was relaxed and calm and enjoyed the company of people who are dear to me, while making a couple of new friends. Then I went to a meeting in the Fellowship. This healing is not because of freedom from difficulties, but it came in the middle of them. I love you, Jesus.