Today was another low motivation day. I didn't sleep well and I kept dozing during devotions so I gave up and went back to bed, getting a late start puts me in the dumps; I don't like feeling like I am behind. That is only an illusion, though, as I am in charge of what I do and how I do it and I only have to answer to myself and the Higher Power. There are no rules except the ones in my head.
I did finally get to moving late in the afternoon and made up my mind I was gonna get Christmas put away and I took down the tree and packed up all the ornaments. And I printed out reference photos to draw. But that is all that I got done.
I realize I still struggle with self-acceptance. I don't like myself very much on days like today and it is probably an attitude problem. I am including something I read in the church bulletin by Charles Swindoll:
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
"Attitude...is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think, or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home.
"The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude...I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% of how I react to it...we are in charge of our attitudes."