....is me of course. Old demons from the past come to haunt me and one of them is self-loathing. Don't tell me not to feel that way because this is not a rational thing that you can will away. A fella told me not long ago that his philosophy in life is to"be who you are," and ever since, I have really been working on that--honest; I wish I had gotten his phone number, though, so I could call and ask him how the hell to do that. But I reckon the way I am feeling at the moment is who I are. So I think I will just be and trust that God will help me to shift it by tomorrow.